It's reality. FUCK IT. It's everything but me.

The last few days have been pretty chill.

Until today.

I never ever ever EVER wanna ride the bus again.

This nasty guy was trying to get my number on the bus.

It's happened to me like 3 times L0L.

I attract ugly OLD people ):

This guy was all up in my space and his breath was STANKAYY!

I had to act like i was a lesbian so he would leave me alone! L0L

Even after i told him i was a lesbian he still wanted my number!

This guy was old. And his teeth were really fucked up L0L

Ewww. And he sat next to me on the bus.

I swear to god. I'm never riding the bus again.

(:

Today i've learned a lot.

It was really unexpected.

Someone from my past came back.

I had a bundle of emotions.

But all that came out were tears.

Just a bundle of good memories and bad memories started filling my head.

I didn't know how to deal with it.

I didn't expect this day to come so soon.

But i'm glad it did.

I finally got some kind of closure.

I'm just letting my past go.

It feels like a big weight has been lifted off my chest.

Goshh. This is crazy.

I'm just so glad this day finally came.

Tears fall at 4 a.m.

I lay in my bed.

Restless.

My soul is tired. Body warn out.

I just lay there.

Thinking.

Thinking of what could be of this miserable life of mine.

I'm trying.

Trying to put my tired eyes to rest; and my body at peace.

It's 3:56 a.m.

I've been laying here for almost an hour.

I get up.

I stand in darkness.

Alone and cold.

I'm trying to find a light in this darkness.

Is it possible?

I stumble and fall. But get right back up.

Can it be?

Light, coming my way?

Light. Oh so bright.

It's coming for me.

Call me so i can make it juicy for yah.

Well well. So today has been kinda chill i guess. My allergies are acting up though.

I just wanna send a "shout out" L0L to an old friend.

Hey mendoza.

I haven't talked to you in a while.

I truly do miss talking to you.

It's good to see that you're setting your life on the right track.

I'm glad i got to know you for the little while that i did.

You're a really talented kid (like i've said a billion times before.)

I'm glad that you started rapping (:

Hopefully i'll talk to you soon.

It's cool if you don't wanna talk though.

Whatever floats your boat.

Maybe you can bomb my room sometime?

I just wanted to let you know that you've been on my mind lately (in a friend type of way)

So yeah.

It would be nice if i talked to you again...

L.I.F.E.

For some reason today i realized how valuable life actually is.I know that life is a precious thing but, it just kinda hit me hard today. It bothers me that people label me as "rich" or "white girl."No one has no IDEA what i've been through in my life and it bothers me that people are quick to judge me.

It might not look like i've been through much but i have. I've pretty much been to hell and back.

I express the pain i've experienced in music and blogging. Just because i don't put every single emotion that i'm feeling on myspace or something doesn't mean i don't have any. I choose to keep what i'm feeling to myself most of the time. I'm not one of those people that put all there shit on myspace. "So before you point any fingers make sure your hands are clean." - Bob Marley